Slap Shot by Jamieson Kelly

Author:Jamieson, Kelly
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Random House Publishing Group
Published: 2017-10-17T04:00:00+00:00

Chapter 15

AUGUST

T-MINUS 37 DAYS

As I try to focus on training the next week, I’m frustrated by my level of distraction. This isn’t like me. Ever since I was a kid, I’ve been a master of self-discipline. I set goals for myself and I achieved them. Making the bantam team. Getting drafted into the WHL. And my biggest goal—the NHL. But when I get home, I find myself wandering around my condo aimlessly.

I want to text Kendra to see what she’s doing. I want to know what’s happening with that debt they’re owed and whether they’ve been paid. She was so upset about that. I want to hear the progress they’re making on the design for the finger vibe. I want to know if Zyana is feeling better. I want to know if her mother got over her hissy fit, and if Kendra ate all the popcorn and if she’s sleeping with Buster.

But I feel like I need to pull back on that. We’re both in agreement that we don’t want a relationship. I need to focus better than this. The whole point of this long-distance flirtationship was to meet my sexual needs without getting emotionally involved, so I could focus on my current goal.

I’ve also been struggling with guilt again, dammit. I had so much fun on the weekend, and those soft, smooshy feelings I had after she told me about her mother, and about her patient who died, scare the ever-loving fuck out of me. What the hell is happening? My wife just died sixteen months ago. She was the love of my life. I’ll never love someone like that again, so I don’t know what the hell this is. And I can’t betray Ariana’s memory by getting involved with another woman.

Not only that, I’ve set my goals and I’ve been working hard on them. I can’t let a woman distract me from them, no matter how smart and funny and sexy she is. I have to be single-minded in pursuit of my goal of making the team.

I’m excited about it now. There was definitely some trepidation when I started my training program, and I have to admit I still feel doubts when I see the stamina and energy of young Jacob Flass and Ben Buckingham. But I’ve been picturing myself playing, remembering what it’s like when we get into the regular season, how busy it will be with not only games but practices and game day skates and of course the travel. I want that busyness in my life.

Kendra and I left things open about when we’d see each other again. There was a brief mention about her possibly coming to Chicago in a couple weeks, but I’m going to just cool my jets a bit. I need to keep myself busy outside of the gym and the rink. Tomorrow Rosser, Rupper, and I are going golfing in the afternoon when we’re done training. That’ll be good.

And I’ll take up Ariana’s parents on that invitation to have dinner with them.

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